*GRRRR* Retake

So I did a retake of the last OOTD. I didn't like the way it turned out and I really wanted to do the neon pants justice. They are really awesome! We still have snow and wind and rain and snow again! Argh! I am so jealous when I read other blog posts from fellow plus size bloggers and they are wearing summer clothes and I am still stuck with layers. But I refuse to not try my best! 

It's no secret that I am a apple size, which means that I carry most of my weight in the middle, the belly area. I also have no booty (butt) and skinny legs. So I find it hard to find jeans that fit me right. If they fit my legs I get a muffin top or if they fit my middle they become baggy around my thighs but that wear ASOS jeans come in! They usually have a lot of stretch too them, I just wish they had a bigger selection of jean styles other than skinny ones.

What I Wore :

Jeans - ASOS Curve

Black tunic - H&M normal range

Leather Jacket - Evans Beth ditto collection nr. 1

Mustache necklace - ASOS

Black ballerinas - New Look - I got them from ebay

White Watch - Mango

Rings - H&M, Accessories and thrifted

Where I Wore it :

Girls Night Out!

 

OOTD - Tropical overdose

Not much to share with you today. I went to a birthday party last night and I had fun. Today I am going to clean out my closet and go throw my shoes. I have way too many shoes and some of them can be thrown away. No need to have worn down shoes stored away, right? Have a nice Sunday everyone!

 

What I Wore 

Turquoise blazer - H&M size L

Zebra print tunic - Evans size UK22/24

Black tights - Zizzi size EU50

Black thigh high boots -  Evans size UK8

I found my inspiration again

So I have been gone for a while. And getting back into blogging has been something I haven't been looking forward too. And let me explain why! I love this blogging showing you pictures, telling you a little story from the day and most of all the response. But I have a skinny family that sees my plus size - my fat! as a negative thing. After the last blog post I had a big fight with my mother. She keeps buying me clothes that are 2 sizes too big because she think my clothes fit too tight and I shouldn't show my fat. It's shameful and should be hidden. And than I get mad and defend myself. So typically she wants to make thing right, and she does so by suggesting that we get me started loosing weight by entering a gym together. Or the newer trend - a operation to shrink my stomach. And that's what made me hit rock bottom. I just started too cry my eyes out and stood up and left the room. My poor boyfriend had to get in between me and my mother. I forgive her. I just keep thinking, she doesn't know any better. She's ignorant. But I know she's not. When she was 20'ish she too was big and she didn't loose the weight because she said to herself "now I am going too lose it," she lost the weight from stress. She was a single mom with 3 kids and a full time job.  

I am really proud of my mother but still major pissed off sometimes. I hate that she sees my bigness as a problem and needs to change me physically. I know I am big, I know I need too loose weight. I also know I have a lot of emotional problems I need to work throw and I know I am a comfort eater. I feed my emotions food. I thank God that I have a great boyfriend that loves me no matter what. I was a size EU size 40 when we meet and after a lot of family problems, hanging around bad people, depression and doing a job with a evil boss for too long I am now a EU size 50. 

But I am getting better, I have a job a love. I work with great people. I have great friends. I have hobbies that make me go out and enjoy life. I no longer stay in all day feeling sorry for myself. I am ready to move on and you know what I've gotten to know so far? I like and love me now. And I don't mind the weight. I want to live healthier in the future but that doesn't guaranty that I will be a skinny person.

Anyways - on to the "OOTD - Outfit Of The Day"

Peach color Jacket - ASOS size UK 22

T-Shirt Leopard print - Evans size UK 22/24

Blue jeans - Evans size UK 22

Sneakers - Graceland size UK 7

Ring - my favorite as always 

Silver watch - Pieces/Vera Moda

Gold Swallow Necklace - Vera Moda

I wore some blush from Sleek named "golden rose"

Black mascara from The Body Shop

And the red nail polish is from Kleancolor and

named "red alert no. 81"

I wore this outfit to go shopping with my boyfriend. We went looking for a new couch but didn't find one we liked. So I dragged my boyfriend to go shopping for new nail polish. My new obsession is Kleancolor nail polish. I love that it's cheap but good quality, the brush applicator is amazing! And the color variation is to die for. I also had a gift certificate too a jewelry store so I went in to buy a watch :) I feel in love with the lime green one, the brand is "Mango". I already have the watch in purple and white. They are so cute that I want one in every color!

 

Sorry for the extreme long blog post today. I had a lot to get of my shoulders and I promise I will be a better blogger from now on. I am going to a birthday party tonight and I will have another outfit post ready for you tomorrow. Have a great weekend everyone!

Love Karina.

P.S. 

I am also going to get a tattoo next week. So check back for the pictures from my first tattoo!

I am so existed!

It's all gone!

I'm sorry about my little vacation, it turns out that I did not do something with my back - I had a kidney infection! But it is on track and I'm in blogging mood. But the other news I have is - I've done it! I have cut my hair and it's short! For the first time in 10 years. And it is strange, very strange ... But it just takes time, it is after all the first time in a long long time I have had  such short hair. Anyway, I leave you for now with pictures of my hair. I'll be back this weekend with more OOTD posts.

Karina